"I don't care about being hurt". "Not the first person you think about". I wish that you would stop devaluing yourself. You shouldn't be hurt in the first place, and so needlessly at that. And do you really think you're second-rate to me? Is that how you feel?
[She looks to the side, and guards her hurt. This isn't about her.]
...I suppose I can't argue that after what happened. So, I'm sorry. I will do better.
I guess, in a sense, I've gotten used to it. The idea of pain and... dying. It just... doesn't scare me as much as other things do anymore.
But when I was beheaded, they... got inside my head. It took hold of those greatest fears and... it won't let go.
...you have a lot of people you care for just as deeply as you do me. And games like that... you can't put everyone first. I know that. We had to choose someone to behead as well, the same as you did.
Now that you say it... I wonder if you know... It's been a very long time since I've had even a shadow of a doubt about the way you feel for me. You've always made me feel very secure about that; going out of your way to make me feel loved and really special. [...she slaps her cheeks.] And I'm not planning to start to doubt myself again now. No matter what my head is saying. My heart knows the answer.
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[She looks to the side, and guards her hurt. This isn't about her.]
...I suppose I can't argue that after what happened. So, I'm sorry. I will do better.
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But when I was beheaded, they... got inside my head. It took hold of those greatest fears and... it won't let go.
...you have a lot of people you care for just as deeply as you do me. And games like that... you can't put everyone first. I know that. We had to choose someone to behead as well, the same as you did.
Now that you say it... I wonder if you know... It's been a very long time since I've had even a shadow of a doubt about the way you feel for me. You've always made me feel very secure about that; going out of your way to make me feel loved and really special. [...she slaps her cheeks.] And I'm not planning to start to doubt myself again now. No matter what my head is saying. My heart knows the answer.