[Even though she had that feeling in her heart that told her-- it's still heartbreaking to hear it. She knew realistically that she'd have to face this one day but... to have that first time be someone she cared for so much was really...
It really fucking sucks, to be honest.
But that's no fault of Hiryuu's.]
And... you're happy with that offer? It's what you want?
[ She can't say what she really wants to say about what she REALLY wants on camera because
well it's poor form to tell your new boss you want to put an arrow through his heart after you've burned to the ground everything he and his comrades and rivals have helped create, isn't it?
instead, she says, ]
Given the current circumstances, it's the only offer I'd feel comfortable taking. My home is where my heart is--and there are too many people I love stuck here in Hell for me to be able to simply return to Kouka.
As for happiness... I'm not sure. The wish that I've made--it's not something I think I could have ever fulfilled with my own power as it is now. So... for that, I'm happy. But I think... that some day this path will lead to my happiness--as long as I don't lose the courage to see it through to the end.
[Serenity listens to the end and nods. She knows what she asked was not as simple as it may sound. But the answer Hiryuu gives tells her everything she needs to know.
She squeezes her hand again, tighter and forces a strained smile on her face. Her eyes are a bit misty, but she does her best to fight it.]
...I know you can.
And I'm sure you will have no shortage of friends to help you when you need it.
[ She leans across the table so she can gently press her forehead to Serenity's If either of them actually starts crying in genuine, that will probably set the other one over too, so she's also doing her best--even though her chest feels tight and heavy and her eyes burn. ]
I know. Knowing that you all are still here--I know that will help keep me strong, too. I'm just sorry that I won't be able to be here to support you directly anymore. ... And that my timing was so lousy. I'm not very good at this sort of thing, but even for me... this isn't exactly good "first date" material.
It's... difficult... thinking about being separated from the people you've come to care so much about and who've supported you in really difficult times.
[Life is full of partings-- knowing that doesn't make it any easier. Although the time may have been short, the impact that Hiryuu made on her was a big one. And that absence is one that she'll feel for a very long time. But... it doesn't have to be forever.]
...still, I know that at least for me, just knowing that you're all still out there doing your best for the sake of everyone... that thought gives me a lot of strength too. To... figure out what it is that I can do for the people here now and in the future too.
It's not quite what I expected, but-- it's not over yet either. I think there's still time to save it still.
I think you're already doing your part to be a help and a comfort to the people around you--at least, I know... I felt better being around you. But... I also believe that you're a very capable person with a warm heart, and that if you set your mind to something--even something so nebulous--you'll find a path for yourself. If you ever want encouragement or advice, I'll offer you whatever I can wherever I am.
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Yes. Azzy came--not two days after King's graduation--and made the offer.
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It really fucking sucks, to be honest.
But that's no fault of Hiryuu's.]
And... you're happy with that offer? It's what you want?
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well it's poor form to tell your new boss you want to put an arrow through his heart after you've burned to the ground everything he and his comrades and rivals have helped create, isn't it?
instead, she says, ]
Given the current circumstances, it's the only offer I'd feel comfortable taking. My home is where my heart is--and there are too many people I love stuck here in Hell for me to be able to simply return to Kouka.
As for happiness... I'm not sure. The wish that I've made--it's not something I think I could have ever fulfilled with my own power as it is now. So... for that, I'm happy. But I think... that some day this path will lead to my happiness--as long as I don't lose the courage to see it through to the end.
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She squeezes her hand again, tighter and forces a strained smile on her face. Her eyes are a bit misty, but she does her best to fight it.]
...I know you can.
And I'm sure you will have no shortage of friends to help you when you need it.
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I know. Knowing that you all are still here--I know that will help keep me strong, too. I'm just sorry that I won't be able to be here to support you directly anymore. ... And that my timing was so lousy. I'm not very good at this sort of thing, but even for me... this isn't exactly good "first date" material.
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[Life is full of partings-- knowing that doesn't make it any easier. Although the time may have been short, the impact that Hiryuu made on her was a big one. And that absence is one that she'll feel for a very long time. But... it doesn't have to be forever.]
...still, I know that at least for me, just knowing that you're all still out there doing your best for the sake of everyone... that thought gives me a lot of strength too. To... figure out what it is that I can do for the people here now and in the future too.
It's not quite what I expected, but-- it's not over yet either. I think there's still time to save it still.
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