She's probably not more than five or ten minutes later than him. Once they're both there she sets them up with a room reservation. Once she's inside, she takes a seat but. She's definitely not as alert as usual. There's a worn-down tiredness to her.]
Hey-- sorry I made you have to go out of your way to meet me.
...I had a feeling that was part of the reason you picked this place.
You weren't there, so... it's a bit of a story.
[But she takes a deep breath and puts it out there anyway.]
It was a hostage game, where we were asked questions and our units were supposed to figure out the answers we gave. The punishments, however, were god awful. Bit by bit they turned the people who's answers didn't match into living dolls.
Well... I guess Hope told Hellfire about what happened in the last bad game and... she decided to smash BARiTONES buzzer during one of the rounds. I couldn't stop either same and Hellfire got shot in the face because of it.
In the end, we played a part in them losing the game, and with it were able to win...
I feel responsible. For my girlfriend's unit being hurt. For my unit feeling like they needed to go so far for my sake. For not being able to find a way that didn't result in even more people being hurt than necessary. It's... difficult to accept.
I just... wish that the answer to our suffering didn't have to be more suffering.
I'm just as hurt and frustrated as anyone about what happened, but it's not really BARiTONES fault, or future is now's fault... it's the production and the hosts and the games...
Mmm, well. Personally, I think even though the production and the hosts are the ones responsible, it doesn't absolve people here of the choices they end up making, either. And I can understand the frustration of seeing your unitmates get hurt because of those choices, and wanting to do something about it.
Maybe I've just ... seen and been through too many things, but ... if you ask me, all things have a price. If you want to live, you pay the price in someone else's blood. If you decide you want to minimise harm, that also comes at a price. Even choosing to sacrifice yourself comes at a cost, and I don't mean just the sacrifice itself.
[Serenity listens to his words carefully-- she appreciates his insight and she knows she needs it right about now.]
No, I don't think you're wrong. And... it's because of all the things you've been through that I want to take those words to heart. This is only the third really bad experience I've had here, so it's still something I'm learning how to navigate.
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Oh! Hey Skylark.
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How are you holding up?
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[Right. This is Lark she's talking to.]
Well, I guess if you're calling me now, you've probably been to Bad End, huh?
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This is something I have to figure out for myself.
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They deserve that much from me.
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[ To the karaoke place!! ]
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She's probably not more than five or ten minutes later than him. Once they're both there she sets them up with a room reservation. Once she's inside, she takes a seat but. She's definitely not as alert as usual. There's a worn-down tiredness to her.]
Hey-- sorry I made you have to go out of your way to meet me.
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It's not a big deal. I wouldn't offer if I wasn't willing. ...And besides, at least here no one outside can hear anything.
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You weren't there, so... it's a bit of a story.
[But she takes a deep breath and puts it out there anyway.]
It was a hostage game, where we were asked questions and our units were supposed to figure out the answers we gave. The punishments, however, were god awful. Bit by bit they turned the people who's answers didn't match into living dolls.
Well... I guess Hope told Hellfire about what happened in the last bad game and... she decided to smash BARiTONES buzzer during one of the rounds. I couldn't stop either same and Hellfire got shot in the face because of it.
In the end, we played a part in them losing the game, and with it were able to win...
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... And you're not particularly happy about that, I imagine?
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I feel responsible. For my girlfriend's unit being hurt. For my unit feeling like they needed to go so far for my sake. For not being able to find a way that didn't result in even more people being hurt than necessary. It's... difficult to accept.
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Even though at least some of it wasn't exactly in your hands? Though I can't say I don't get why Hellfire did that.
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I'm just as hurt and frustrated as anyone about what happened, but it's not really BARiTONES fault, or future is now's fault... it's the production and the hosts and the games...
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Mmm, well. Personally, I think even though the production and the hosts are the ones responsible, it doesn't absolve people here of the choices they end up making, either. And I can understand the frustration of seeing your unitmates get hurt because of those choices, and wanting to do something about it.
Maybe I've just ... seen and been through too many things, but ... if you ask me, all things have a price. If you want to live, you pay the price in someone else's blood. If you decide you want to minimise harm, that also comes at a price. Even choosing to sacrifice yourself comes at a cost, and I don't mean just the sacrifice itself.
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No, I don't think you're wrong. And... it's because of all the things you've been through that I want to take those words to heart. This is only the third really bad experience I've had here, so it's still something I'm learning how to navigate.
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